Toe-Tapping Thursday: Celine Dion

Last week I opened the can of worms that is Celine Dion. Once Pandora's box is open, it's kind of hard to close it back up. Translation: Almost non-stop Celine at my house (there was a Tori Amos day in between, but then I went right back to Celine). So, after extensive research [aka hours of non stop listening - (English) album after (English) album] I have compiled my top 10 Celine Dion songs.

10. Beauty and the Beast - duet with Peabo Bryson: It's Beauty and the Beast people! Disney!!! Not much more I can say about that.

9. The Power Of Love: "'Cause I am your lady. And you are my man. Whenever you reach for me. I'll do all that I can!" I like romantic songs, and this one is pretty lovey. I love how it starts so quiet and then builds up.

8. My Heart Will Go On (Theme from Titanic): You know there can't be a list without this song. Hey, at least it isn't number one!

7. Seduces Me: This song is in her Falling Into You album (1996). I don't think this was a single, but I love this song. It's very sensual, and a little subdued for the most part for her. And I adore the guitar in this song.

6. Where Does My Heart Beat Now: Classic Celine. Everything about this song just works perfectly. Love the chorus, especially the last line, "Where do all the lonely hearts go." She comes down from her belt to deliver it and it's perfect.

5. When I Fall In Love - duet with Clive Griffin (from Sleepless in Seattle):  This classic song has been covered a lot, probably because it's just a beautiful song. Celine and Clive nail it!

4. Alone: I remember when this album (Taking Chances) came out. I was at FYE, and picked it up to sample the tracks and when this song started I gasped. It's my favorite Heart song, and Celine covered it! (Although I hear it isn't Heart's original song...) As I listened to Celine's cover in the store I had to force myself not to squee and jump and/or faint. I loved it. Loved it so much I bought the entire album.

3. Tell Him - duet with Barbara Streisand: Oh man, I remember when this song first came out - I died! Died I tell you! These two ladies, singing together...E.PIC! And the video is brilliant - I loved that it was them singing in the studio and learning the song and playing around. The 90's had a lot of videos like this, but this one is one of the ones that just works so well.

2. If You Asked Me To: Well, no wonder it was the song for last week's Triple T, it's my second all time favorite. Honestly, I didn't know it was that high up on the list until I made this list.

1. It's All Coming Back to Me Now: Oh yes. yes yes yes yes yes! You got the piano, you got the passion, you got the dramatics, you've got the belting, you've got the best Celine Dion song EVER! And that video matches the song to a T. Also, this song/video has always reminded me of I'd Do Anything For Love by Meatloaf. Which is funny, because Meatloaf did a cover of It's All Coming Back to Me with Marion Raven, formerly of M2M, ten years after the original came out.

So here it is, the FULL version of It's All Coming Back to Me Now - because the radio edit cuts out most of my favorite section of the song.

Toe-Tapping Thursday: If You Asked Me To

Yeah, I'm going there - Celine Dion. You can scoff and mock, but I know everyone has that one Celine song that they jam out to when no one is around. The woman has had like twenty number 1 singles, and you couldn't turn on the radio and NOT expect to hear her in the 90's, so obviously someone is listening to her. ;)

So for today's Toe-Tapping Thursday, I give you one of my (many) favorite Celine songs, 1992's If You Asked Me To - which is a Patti LaBelle cover.

Enjoy!

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Trouble Maker

So in addition to listening to English tunes I also listen to Spanish music, and a little bit of K-pop and J-pop. This week's Toe-Tapping Thursday is a song called Trouble Maker by a South Korean duo whose name is also Trouble Maker. They are a sub group of 4Minute (an all girl band consisting of 5 members, Hyuna being one half of Trouble Maker) and Beast (a 6 member boy band, Jay Stomp being the other half of Trouble Maker).

The song has this really catchy whistle hook and every couple of weeks I find myself whistling it. That's what happened this week - I started whistling it over and over again until I realized what I was whistling and then I had to go listen to it. Been listening to it all week, can't get it out of my system. I know I will eventually tire of it, but only for a couple of weeks. ;)

Looking for Ms. Rose

I have a friend who has talked about writing her own book since we met 2 years ago. I think it's why we bonded initially; she was writing a work of fiction based on her life growing up, but only had a few chapters after a couple of years of writing. I had 2 finished novellas and was thinking about getting back into writing (this was during my hiatus). I was excited to meet someone - face to face - who had a similar goal as I did. She was excited because she had never met anyone else that liked to write, period.

I talked about writing constantly and she never did. I've worked on getting my writing muscles back to where they once were by doing creative writing prompts, and blogging on occasion, and actually writing stories. She started to edit the stuff she had, but quickly stopped. Then she started talking about a children's book she wanted to write.

She sent me her children's story this weekend. I am proud that she wrote it, and finished it. Proud that she started taking steps into getting it published. I'm also proud to say, that I enjoyed reading it.

I have become a sounding board to her, not only as a critique partner for the things she's written, but also as far as getting published and the steps that she needs to take.

I am not a published author, I've barely just begun to consider myself a writer again. But I've done some research and I've submitted manuscripts in the past, and I guess in her mind that means something. I am more than happy to impart whatever sliver of knowledge I do have.

Can I just say that for someone who loves to research stuff, she sure does NOT research any of this! Haha.

My friend spent this weekend bugging me - and I say that with all the love in the world - about what to do. I tried to tell her that there are a number of ways to go about getting her book out there, including self publishing which she did not want to hear about.

After that the conversation changed to marketing - her writer's platform. Now, I recall a few weeks ago having a conversation with her, telling her she needed to get her name out there, let people get to know her. I told her to at LEAST get a Facebook page. She said no. Said, she would do all that after the book was written. Funny how life is; I remember saying the same thing to my friend Lisa and her kindly setting me straight. A writer must market themselves in addition to their product. If people "know" you, they're more likely to buy your stuff. This weekend, my friend did a bit of research and came across the term writer's platform, so I encouraged her again to create an online presence. To meet and interact with other writers, to network.

This got me thinking about my own platform and my own networking. I believe I have a voice...but it isn't a full voice. I make my passion for reading known. People know I review books. But not many of them know (or remember) that I write. And that's my fault. I purposely don't mention it. Because I'm scared. Because I doubt myself every minute of every hour. I keep telling myself that I'll start promoting myself as a writer when I know for certain that I'll finish the current story I'm writing. But that's just a cop out. I'm afraid of announcing to the world my intentions and then not following through. I'm afraid of not finishing my story. I'm just afraid, period.

I've met and have surrounded myself with a great bunch of people who I know would be supportive of my journey. I need to believe in myself and throw myself out there 100% and just do it. I need to overcome my fears - I really do!

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Stay The Night

I'm not the biggest Paramore fan. I like a few of their singles, but I'm not crazy about them. I don't own any of their CDs. I do like their lead singer, Hayley Williams voice - depending on what/how she sings. Sometimes I have to listen to one of her songs a few times before I like it.

Which brings me to this week's Toe-Tapping Thursday. This week's obsession? Stay The Night by Zedd featuring Hayley Williams of Paramore.

I heard this song a while back and I'll admit, it didn't really strike my fancy. The only reason why I heard it in its entirety was because I was watching the video - which I liked. I didn't hear it again until this week, when I started to listen to the radio and it kept coming on. Then it started showing up on Spotify and I found myself adding it to my playlist, and humming it even when it wasn't playing. I can't tell you exactly when I got hooked, but I did.

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Hook

Oh shit ya'll, it's Thursday!!! I completely spaced out. Book contests and writing and research and whatnot. But it's still Thursday, so now that I remember what day it is, I shall do this week's Toe-Tapping Thursday. Especially since I didn't do one last week. Sorry about that, I had company over all week and was a tad preoccupied.

Anywho, earlier this week, Emma Stone was on The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon and she participated in a lip sync battle which was pretty cool. The first song she did was Hook by Blues Travelers. I'm with Jimmy Fallon on this one, I'd completely forgotten about that song! Obviously we automatically think of Run Around when Blues Travelers come up in conversation, but Hook is such a great song, and I remember jamming out to this when I was like 9 or 10.

So here's the song for this week's Toe-Tapping Thursday. Hope you guys enjoy it.

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Writing (but mostly research) Day

I've put aside my romance for now. The one I'm writing, not the one I'm reading. Things were going slow, and the YA that I've been brainstorming for months kept bugging me to work on it, so that's what I did. I had written about a page a couple of months back and I thought at one point that I would delete it and start over, but after reading it over today I actually liked it, and decided to continue where I left off. I got about another page in a half done which isn't a lot, but I needed to do some research for an upcoming description. That took a very long time, but I finally got it. Here are the pics, think of it as a puzzle, feel free to put them together. :P

 

Where do you get all those books?

I have a few friends that have asked this numerous times. You see, I'm a recovering book-a-holic. That doesn't mean I don't read anymore, it means I can't go into a bookstore without having a book blackout and spending hundreds of dollars. But I love books, and I always have a new book to read, how do I do it? I'm magic! Seriously though, there's many different ways to get free books - legally. You can enter contests - I'm really good at winning those, just won one today. You can join a street team for one of your favorite authors; some of them give you advanced reading copies (ARCs). There's always Amazon, of course! And to help weed out the rotten freebies from the good ones, Bitten By Books has a nice list for ya! Click here, for free reads.

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Go Slow

I almost forgot about Toe-Tapping Thursday - a lot of craziness happened last night. Let's just say it involved me moving a sofa from my 2nd floor apartment all the way downstairs and outside by myself, and leave it at that.

But while I was struggling with furniture, or playing online games, or reading, or whatever else I've done this week, there was one song that I kept listening to. And when I wasn't listening to it, I was humming it or singing it in my head. The song is Go Slow by HAIM. Yes, I know I talked about HAIM a few weeks ago, but in my defense I spoke of them as a whole, and now I'm speaking about one particular song.

Usually what I do when I listen to an album, is locate my favorite track and listen to it non stop. Then slowly, I start listening to the rest of the album, with a lot of repeats of the favorite track. But little by little, I find a 2nd favorite song, or a discover I really like the beat of a certain song or the lyrics of another track speak to me. This is what happened with Go Slow. After exhausting If I Could Change Your Mind and Better Off, I found myself going back to Go Slow. I think what really made it my current obsession was their live performances of the song; I found little nuances that I hadn't heard in the album - they're there, I hear them now that I know to look for them, but they're so far in the background that I've missed it this whole time. The lyrics are really good; the more I listened to them, the more I realized that they spoke to me. The song is about an ex and I think we all have an ex, right? :P It's just a great song overall, HAIM killed it with this track in a very sneaky way; the song is understated until you really listen to it...a lot. LOL.

(Funny story before I show the video/song: If you read my post on HAIM from a few weeks ago, or if you're a fan of the band, you know that Alana Haim looks like Troian Bellisario from Pretty Little Liars. Well, HAIM performed at Coachella this past weekend, and Troain was there. Someone tweeted Troian, "Hey are you in HAIM!?" and Troian replied, "Yes I am." HAHAHA! Love it!!!)

Ok ok here it is - this is my favorite live performance that I've seen. And it has a funny pick up line in the end. :P

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Heartburn

I'll admit it - after I wrote last week's Toe-Tapping Thursday I binge-watched Making The Band 3 seasons one and two. I loved that show, and watching the formation of Danity Kane. Ok, I mainly watched for Laurieann Gibson and her boom kacks - I can watch her forever.

My MTB3/Danity Kane (re)obsession last week has led to this week's Toe-Tapping Thursday song: Heartburn by Alicia Keys. If you've seen MTB3 then you know that Laurieann used this song (as well as others) to teach the girls choreography. This was always my favorite song that they danced to, (aside from the track that they girls had to write lyrics to) and I'll be honest, the first time I saw this show I didn't know who sang the song. It wasn't until I was rewatching it all last week that the song came on and I immediately recognized Alicia Key's voice. "How the hell did I NOT realize that before!?" I'm special. :P

So here it is, the song that has been playing non stop this week - Heartburn by Alicia Keys:

Did You Just Sign Me Up To Your Newsletter Without My Permission?

I just realized this earlier today, and the more I think about it, the more irritated I become. We all know I love to read and some of you may know that I have a book review blog (see the tab above), and I'm all for supporting authors...that being said, I don't like people to just assume things or push things on me without my knowledge or consent.

Now, I have been pretty active these last two weeks; entering contests, adding new authors, following said authors, etc. and there is a very small chance that I did this myself - but I don't think so. Here's why:

I don't know this author. I've never read anything by them. I even looked at my browser history to see if her name popped up and nothing did. I am familiar with the author's name, and that's because my best friend, who is also one of my contributors to Book Verse, wrote a review for one of her books. I went over and checked the date of the review and then did a search in my inbox to see when the first newsletter came in, and it was dated 3 days after my friend posted her review.

So here is what I think happened: She got a ping on Google or something alerting her that someone had mentioned her name, and she went to my blog and read the nice review that my friend left, and then clicked on the contributor links where I have my email address and proceeded to sign me up to her newsletter.

Like I said, I don't have a problem supporting authors. In fact, I have gotten emails before from authors who asked if I could read and review one of their books, or to follow them on social media or sign up to their newsletter. I am more than happy to. But don't force it upon me. I will choose whether or not to follow you or your newsletter - do not take the choice away from me. And yes, I know I can (and definitely plan to) unsubscribe, but the lack of courtesy really bugs me. I have my email address up so if an author wants to contact me for whatever reason they can, not so you can abuse it and spam me. Yes I called it spam, because it was unsolicited.

For any writers/authors reading this: This isn't meant to discourage you from contacting me. I welcome it! A simple, "Hi, thanks for the nice review. Can I sign you up for my newsletter?" will go a long way with me.

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Welcome To The Dollhouse

This week's Toe-Tapping Thursday is the album Welcome To The Dollhouse by Danity Kane. This was the group's sophomore (and last) album which came out back in 2008.

I was obsessed with this group almost since the very beginning. I stumbled across a marathon of Making The Band 3 one weekend and I LOVED it! From that moment on, I was invested in finding out who Diddy was going to pick to be in the band. And from the very beginning, both Aundrea and Aubrey were my favorites - and they ultimately ended up becoming two of the members. I loved how they become best friends. Of course they didn't stay best friends...

It was a long road forming this group. At the end of the season, Diddy did not make a band. Instead he picked some of the contestants to move on to round 2 (Making The Band 3 Season 2) where they - along with new contestants - had to dance harder, and sing better. At the end of this season Danity Kane was formed. Unfortunately they didn't last long. There was a lot of drama between the girls and Diddy, and he eventually fired Aubrey and D. Woods from the group. Shortly after that he got rid of Aundrea and only kept Dawn (I think Shannon left of her own accord, I don't remember honestly). It was heartbreaking seeing these girls who worked their asses off disband in a relatively short amount of time.

But they're back! The girls have gotten back together - sans D. Woods - and are working on their third studio album, and are going on tour this May. I think that's cool. Makes me wonder if Aubrey and Aundrea overcame their issues and are good friends again.

Anyway, for some reason I just had this urge to listen to their second album, so I went searching for it in my room and found it rather quickly. I hadn't listened to it in over 4 years, and I'd forgotten how good it was. Of course I remembered how good the song Damaged was, since it was their single. And Bad Girl was always playing in my old apartment (it was my Whore's anthem). But I forgot how good the other tracks were, especially Strip Tease and 2 Of You which are my favorite tracks besides Damaged.

I will definitely check out their third album when it comes out.

Lack of Sleep But Still a Good Day!

I think it's been about 2 weeks since I've had a decent night's sleep. I've napped, but I haven't slept a good 7 or 8 hours straight. It's beginning to take a toll me. For example, I've been trying to write a blog all day today. I couldn't come up with a topic, and I was sooo tired, I couldn't even form words in my head to type up. I'm officially mentally exhausted and it sucks, because I want to do so many things, and I can't!

On a better note, today was a very lovely day. I was surprised, because yesterday was rather nasty; wet, rainy, and at one point slushy. So to have this wonderful weather, and sun (even though I'm not a fan of the big star) was good. Especially since I went downtown today, and the thought of me getting my hair wet, made me kind of nervous. But no worries, because it all worked out.

Speaking of downtown...the reason I was downtown, was because I had a lunch date. Like a DATE date. Weird, I know! I don't date often. I'll go on first dates with a few guys, get discourage, quit, and not date again for at least a year. That's my routine, and I've been pretty consistent about it. :P But, this date was actually nice, and there is going to be a second one. *gasp* Finally, someone who understands the true definition of dating. I'm all about taking it slow, actually getting to know someone, not committing to a relationship with a near stranger; and the guys I've dated (and pretty much everyone nowadays) they're quick to attach a title and talk about weddings and kids. It's scary, people! What's the rush? Enough with instant gratification, and enough with being in love with the idea of being in love. Can we all just take it one step at a time, live in the moment, and smell the roses? Thank you. (Apparently, this has turned into a Public Service Announcement.)

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Missing (Todd Terry Remix)

It's been a very music heavy week for me. So many songs were stuck in my head that it was hard for me to pick one. Everything from HAIM to Tori Amos to Paul Simon. I finally settled on a song and the reason why I picked it over the other ones is because all the other songs that were randomly popping in my head were songs that I heard recently. Except for this song - I haven't heard this in at least a year and it just occupied my mind for a full 24 hours out of the blue. This week's Toe-Tapping Thursday is Everything But The Girl's Missing - the Todd Terry Remix. This is one of those songs that I grew up with. I remember listening to it on the radio and thinking it was such a cool song - nothing I'd ever heard before. Of course, back then I mostly listened to Spanish music, Hip Hop and R & B...but then songs like this would play on the radio and I would realize that I was listening to the wrong type of music! Just love the vibe. And yes, it's another sad song - I swear I like happy songs too.

Distractions

Writing is hard enough for me as it is, between the interruptions, and procrastination, but now I have distractions too. You're probably thinking that distractions are part of procrastinating, but I'm telling you it's whole different thing!

When I finally buckle down, get the creative juices flowing, get my muse to speak to me, start writing word after word, sentence after sentence, BAM, a distraction comes along and stills my momentum.

I'm talking about this:

Seriously!? She couldn't go be cute in another room like Selene? She just had to plant herself directly in front of me. See? Distraction!

Toe-Tapping Thursday: Illusory Light

This week's Toe-Tapping Thursday is the song Illusory Light by Sarah Blasko.

I first heard this song about a month or so ago in an episode of The Vampire Diaries. From the moment I heard the song, I knew I had to have it. Right after the episode finished, I found the song and got it.

It is such a beautiful and haunting track; and also sad. I like sad songs, I guess. Between the piano hook that plays almost the entire song and Sarah Blasko's unique voice, this song mellows me out, and puts me in a contemplative state.

I have no clue what else she sings, as this is the only song of hers I've heard, but I'll most definitely have to check her out and see what else she's got.

1 VS 2 or More

I've been debating whether I should work on two (two is my limit) different stories at the same time, or just continue working on the one I'm currently writing.

Things are going slow - slower than I would like them to be. I know it's because I'm not 100% in love with this story. And I've got other ideas and other stories I want to write, but I started this one first, and I kind of want to follow through on it.

That being said, I've worked on two stories in the past, and I think I'm more successful that way. If I get stuck one I can jump to the other. But obviously I'm out of practice, so I don't know how well I'd manage this time around.

So I'm a little torn on what I should do: Should I stick with one, or try to work on two?

Tim The Killer

Red, sticky blood ran down my hands as I stared at my landlady, Beth, sprawled on my kitchen floor. She was dead. I killed her.

“Shit. Only two weeks and I already broke my promise.” Sighing, I grabbed the butcher knife from my knife rack and began to chop away at Beth’s body. I started with her feet – I always chop from the bottom up, a personal preference I suppose. 

Feeling the bones crack beneath the blade made me want to grind my teeth. I hated the sound of bones breaking. My thing was blood. That’s why I killed. To watch the blood ooze out of wounds. To feel the warm liquid on my hands, my arms, my face... My biggest fantasy was to bathe in a tub full of human blood. But I wasn’t supposed to have those fantasies anymore. I made a promise to someone very dear to me. I promised I wouldn’t kill anymore. I thought if I made it into a New Year’s resolution it would help me keep that promise. Obviously I was wrong.

It took me an hour to chop Beth up into pieces. After that I grabbed two large garbage bags and threw the pieces in. I saved her head for last.

“Well Beth, I guess this is goodbye. You used to be a decent landlady when I first moved in, but over the years, you just got older and crankier and honestly, I just lost my patience. On the bright side, you can stop dating all those old geezers.” I tossed Beth’s head in with the rest of her body and knotted the bag close, then put that bag inside the second bag and knotted that one as well. Setting the bag aside, I went to fetch my mop and bucket. This was too messy for my Swiffer. 

As I returned to the bloody floor I found myself mesmerized by the dark color contrasting my shiny white tiles. I couldn’t help myself; I crawled to the floor, and when I could feel Beth’s blood in between my fingers once more, I plopped down onto the bloody tiles. 

I laid there in silence for a few minutes, enjoying the smell and feel of blood until I could not be still any longer. Writhing on the floor, my entire body was covered in dark red liquid within minutes. 

This was heaven, this was the pleasure that I sought after my entire life. This moment, this feeling of euphoria. How could I think that I could give this up? This is what I live for.

Screw the promise.

(Only two weeks into the New Year had passed and Tim had already broken his first resolution: Don’t kill anyone. Write this scene. 500 words or less.)

Toe-Tapping Thursday: One More Try

I had a few songs this week that I thought I was going to blog about for Toe-Tapping Thursday; which included more HAIM (can't help it, their album is on repeat). But then the decision was taken from my hands. I was watching The Voice (love that show) and one of the contestants auditioned with the song One More Try by George Michael.

This is one of my all time favorite songs - and I know I have a TON of all time favorite songs. It's also one of those songs that I forget about. When I think of George Michael, I automatically think of Freedom, Faith, All That She Wants, and my favorite Careless Whispers. Yet, for some reason One More Try escapes me. I'll randomly hear it on the radio every couple of years and every time I hear the first few chords I have the same reaction: I gasp, and I stop doing whatever it is I'm doing. When George Michael starts to sing, I find myself closing my eyes and I just listen. I don't think I've ever sang this song. I can't. I'm unable to do anything but listen and feel how beautiful and haunting, and heartbreaking this song is. And every. single. time. that he hits and holds that high note in "touch you" he squeezes my heart and breaks it. This song holds me captive and makes pain sound, and feel beautiful.

Are We Friends?

Living in a different state than 98% of your friends is hard. Especially when that includes your best friends. You don't get to see them nearly as often as you would like. You can't just call out of the blue because you're bored and invite them over or just go over to their place. And when you're going through hard times and you want to be with them you can't because you're 3-6 hours away.

That really sucks.

What sucks even more though, is coming to the realization that maybe some of your friends don't care as much as you thought they did. I've been re-evaluating a lot of my friendships lately and it's left me hurt - to say the least. And I'm having a hard time with one relationship in particular.

I will not use any names, because this post isn't meant to insult anyone or put anyone on the spot. This is just a way to get my scattered thoughts down, and hopefully it helps me with what I'm feeling.

Anyway, this one particular friendship is a very complicated one. We have a bit of a messy history; I always thought that despite (or because of) our history we have become better and closer friends. Now that we have distance between us, and we haven't seen each other in a long time, I'm beginning to doubt our closeness.

This friend is almost never in contact with me. I always make contact with them first. The only times they make contact first (if it can even be called that) is when they like one of my Facebook statuses. When we do talk, it's through text. Now, I don't really have a problem with that because I hate talking on the phone...but I would once in a while like to hear their voice. Also, we don't talk about anything when we do text. It's like pulling teeth to try to get them to tell me what's going on in their life.

We made plans to see each other so we could catch up and talk. I really needed to talk to them, I was going through so much in my life and this was the person I was usually able to confide in 100%. Things beyond our control happened and we couldn't meet up. But we could have rescheduled, we had time, they had free time, and they didn't. They knew how badly I needed to see them and they didn't even bother to reschedule or at the very least call me so we could talk on the phone even if we couldn't see each other in person.

That really hurt. Even when I'm far away, I think about them; I make sure to periodically check in on them. I mail birthday and Christmas presents...I make an effort, and they don't. It made me feel so alone. Like our friendship was a sham. And then I started doubting our whole relationship.

What if they were friends with me to get to someone else? Because they had romantic feelings for one of my other friends who was always with me. What if our whole friendship was just a way for them to get to this other friend? They eventually ended up together...and they broke up...so I guess they don't need to keep up pretenses with me anymore and pretend that we're such good friends.

So that's what's been on my mind. Was our whole friendship a lie? Was it just a means to an end? Because it's starting to feel that way. Lately it feels like I've been betrayed by a lot of people in my life, and I'm tired of it. Too tired to even confront this person. Why bother? They'll just either lie about it or tell me that I'm right which won't change anything.

I'm just going to take a step back and see what happens. I'm not going to try to reach out. If they're really my friend they'll reach out to me eventually. If they're not...then I guess we won't be speaking to each other anymore.