TONIGHT

YAY!! PAT BENATAR...TONIGHT!!

I am so super excited that this is all I'm going to post, a lot of stuff (baaad) happened yesterday, and I don't want to ruin my evening by thinking about. Although something good that did happen yesterday was that I got the anthology I won in the mail yesterday. :) I will start reading it tomorrow probably.

Oh and in case I forget, tomorrow is the season premiere of "Gossip Girl" YES! And more importantly, Wednesday is the 2 hour premiere of "BONES" YES YES YES YES YESYESYESYESYES! (Can you tell I'm excited...well I am) Ok I'm off now, I'm going to start getting ready for the concert soon, so I better get my butt in gear.


TONIGHT....

TGIF

It's friday, and I'm glad. No work till Monday, Virginia is coming down from Jersey today. I'm going shopping tomorrow, and then Virginia and I are going to the concert on Sunday. I'm pretty excited, I have a lot planned this weekend.

Wednesday was great, my brother got outta jail and he looks good! Lost a whole bunch of weight, I was really glad to see him, and so were his kids.

Thursday I got Apartment Life (Sims 2 expansion pack) and OMG it is GREAT! There are witches now, and you can become a witch and depending on which kind of spells you do, that will determine wether you're a good witch or a bad witch. You can fly on a broom and conjure up a familiar, and teleport. Oh and you get a book of shadows, soooo cooool!!!! I did a lil lil lil bit of writing today, not much because, well I wanted to play Sims (hehe oops)

Ok that's all I've got, I guess. I don't know why but I find it hard to write on my blog, yet I can leave super long comments on other people's blogs, lol. Oh well.

2 Days Till....

It's been daysssss....

I know, I know, I've been a bad bad girl, but in my defense I've been sick since Wednesday and everytime I log on I read other people's blogs first and leave comments, and by the time I get here, I'm too tired to write anything.

Ok so tomorrow is the big day, why you ask?

1. My brother gets out of jail: Good thing, I miss him, and I'm sure he's been miserable in there, hopefully he has learned his lesson and wont do foolish things again (but I kinda doubt it)

2. My nephew (The lil cutie below) is starting Kindergarden! I still can't believe it, he's 5 and I can still remember him being this lil tiny baby who's diaper I used to change. Wow they sure do grow up fast.

3. This is going to sound stupid--since I'm so excited about it--but the new Sims 2 expansion pack (Apartment Life) comes out tomorrow! I love my sims game, and play everyday, I actually play when I'm supposed to be writing...eek...like this past week...and today. But I can't help it, I'm addicted.

Now as I just mentioned, my writing isn't going so well, I'm procrastinating. There's a number of reasons why I haven't been writing as much as I should, I probably haven't mentioned this on this blog before, but, I want to be a romance writer. I've taken a long journey in life to find this goal, writing is something I've always done, something I've always liked, and I think I've done well, but since it was always a part of me I didn't notice how much I love it. I took for granted the feeling that I used to get as a little girl when my teachers chose my essays to read out loud to the class, or when the little story I wrote and illustrated in the 3rd grade won first place out of all the different 3rd grade classes, and got laminated and turned into a little book and was copied and sent out through the school.

I don't know, it was just something I always did, and I didn't think much about it. Then I wanted to be an actress, and do stage theater, and I spent years taking classes and performing and I thought that was what I was going to do w/ my life, and then my mother got in the way. She gave me an altimatum: Either give up my theater dreams and go to a regular college and study something else, or get disowned and not have any kind of support (financial or otherwise). I think we all know what I chose, and I regret it everyday, but I can't go back and change things, I can only look forward. I honestly don't know when I had my epiphony, but somewhere along the line I realized that what I liked most about acting was he scripts themselves and being able to read something and act it out to people the way that I thought people should perceive it. One of my acting teachers once said that to be a great actor one has to love the english language, love words, and I realized that I DO. I've been writing all my life, and I love to read as much. I love romance novels, I love being in that world, and that's what all of my short stories used to lack, romance. Like I said, I don't know how I realized all this, but I know that more than anything, I want to be a published romance author. I want to write contemporary pieces, I want to write paranormal romance, and I think this time around instead of just bitching and whining that this is what I want to do, I've decided to actually try to do it. REALLY.

So I started writing a novel, which I might not do anything with once I'm done, I just want to see if I'm able to write one, see if I'm able to write 50,000 words (that's a lot), and if I can, and do, then I'll polish it, or rewrite it or write something completely different. But I'm going to do it, I'm doing my research, and I'm plannig on joining RWA and, well I'm kinda making this up as I go along, but I'm taking it one step at a time, and I guess we'll see where this leads me.

Wow that was a mouthful (or fingerful lol) anyways that's all I'm going to say for today except for...

5 DAYS TILL....

Again...

Darnell and I got into another fight. It was a really stupid fight (like always) something that should've been resolved in minutes, but because neither of us want to back down first it's been almost 2 days. This is sucks major balls, and the only reason why I don't call him and end this stupid thing is pride...or maybe a bit of competative challenge. The last thing he said to me was "Oh ur going to regret not talking to me in a little while." Because usually after a while I miss him, and I go and talk to him and say I'm sorry even though I'm not always in the wrong, and so he expects it now. And I'm not going to keep backing down, I refuse to give him anymore power. So, I'm not calling him, and it sucks because I left my Wii remote at his place and now I can't play guitar hero, but I guess that's a good thing, I can work on my novel.

In other news, my brother gets out of jail in 9 days. I haven't really talked about it because things arn't going to be good when he does. He's not a bad guy, and he isn't really a criminal. He got locked up for 10 months because of his "baby momma". Everytime they had an argument she would call the cops and accuse him of either beating her or one of the kids. My brother had friends in the police department and they knew him and knew her and they KNEW that it wasn't true, but they had to report it anyways even though they didn't do anything to him. But my brother didn't learn, and after so many incidents, you can't just write it off, so he was forced to do some time and do some programs. The problem my brother has (REALLY has) is that he's a con-artist. I love him, but he gets away w/ EVERYTHING because he is so charismatic and when he smiles it's contagious and everyone likes his easy going personality, but what they don't know is that he's eating your brain, manipulating you till you do what he wants you to do. He has so much potential to do so many things w/ his life, but he's lazy, he likes people to take care of him so he doesn't have to. And for the last 28 years, people have taken care of him, and they continue to do so. So now my step-dad wants to give him a job at the store and do all this stuff, and of course I'm going to be the one stuck dealing w/ him. Dealing with his screw ups and covering for him because I'm not immune to his charm. I may resist at first, but he knows how to play people, and he'll just play me harder till I'm cornered, and finally give in. That's the way it's been since...well since I was born.

I've got a headache just blogging about all this....


13 DAYS TILL....

Countdown continues

17 DAYS TILL...

Not much...

Not much to tell today...um, I'm tired..hehe. Tomorrow is Darnell's birthday, he'll be 28.
Oh, also, Selene (my kitty cat) is in heat...arrgh, yowling up a storm. Unfortunately I cant afford to take her to the vet so we're both gonna have to suffer. She's a horny one...like her mommy :D

That's it, that's all I gotta report. Like I said noooooooothing going on today. You know cept for....


18 Days Till...

"oooook" moment

So here's a random, should have been normal, encounter w/ my landlords:

So Ruben (my landlord :D) was supposed to stop by my house yesterday to take care of a leaking problem in my roof, and also to collect the rent (but we'd agreed that he'd stop by my job to get it since I practically live there). He was supposed to be at my house @ 3, but didn't show up (no surprise). I get a call around 4:30, it's his wife Zebel, and she has called to let me know that Ruben wasn't going to make it because he had car trouble and his car was in the shop. (No problem) And if it was ok for her to get the rent later that night. So I told her that the money was at my job w/ my step-dad (I work for him) like we all agreed on and that she could stop by the store whenever she wanted to pick it up. So she says ok, and we hang up. End of story . . .

Or so I thought . . .

Later that evening, around 7:00, there's a knock on my door. It's Ruben. He tells me that he stopped by to tell me that he couldn't stop by because he had no car, and that yes, he knew his wife spoke w/ me about it earlier. And if it was ok for him to come Wednesday, I said yes, and then he said he wasn't going to get the rent today (yesterday), he'd wait till Wednesday. Then he left. End of story. REALLY.

So I'm sorry but...WHY did u show up at my door to tell me something that I already knew and to ask me something you could have asked over the phone??? And no, he does not live near me...so why bother? If anything, wouldn't he have just gone to my job to get the rent money since he decided to come down here anyway??? (FYI: My job is only a couple of blocks from my house).

Does anybody else find this a tad odd? Random? Anomalous? <-I like that word :P



19 Days Till...

Much to discuss...

Ok, where to start...(this is what happens when u skip a day of blogging)...

Ok Saturday: Many hours after my blog, Darnell gave me a call @ 2 a.m. He wanted to talk about our argument, and how he missed me and blah blah blah....we had GREAT make-up sex. Like OMG, romance novel, cry afterwards sex! Yeah, by far the best sex I've ever had, and only took an hour. So yeah, we're ok for now, as ok as we EVER get.

Ok moving on...
I read an interesting post over on Wicked Authors today, about ones writing habit, and how you should write a little everyday. I found it highly ironic because I stopped writing for a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time, and I just started trying to get back into it by starting a new story, and I've found it extremely hard. Starting any type of writing for me is always the hardest thing, and it seems like this time around it's even worse, I was beginning to think I sucked. Like I lost my talent, or I never had any lol, but reading that blog eased my mind a bit, and it makes sense, so I shall set my own daily word count goal and see if that helps.

Now....I saved the BEST for last (*drum rooooolll*)
I bought tickets for PAT BENATAR!!! OMG she's going to be playing at the Klein at the end of this month, and I can't believe she's going to be so close to me (a couple of blocks, literally). So I've bought 2 tickets, and I'm going to go see her, and it's going to be freaking totally super awesome! And if you haven't noticed, I'm quite excited. Pat Benatar is like royalty for me, I worship her, and actually she was my first concert experience back when I was 16 (2002, not that long ago...I'm still a wee baby)so it will be totally fun to go see her again, and I don't have to travel all the way to Westbury, NY to see her, I can WALK. HOLY COW, I'm still in awe/shock/other things haha. But I shall be counting down, so be prepared for the name Pat Benatar to come across my blog for the next couple of weeks. So without further ado....

20 DAYS TILL....

I'M BACK WHOOOOO!

After almost 2 years of bloggerless activity I am back!

So you see, when blogger changed and did all that google stuff, I switched like they told me to, but my blog got lost somewhere. It wasn't in my new or old file and I didn't know what to do, I sure as hell wasn't going to do another one, so I walked away from it. Every 6-8 months I would come back, try again, but to no avail. So finally for some random reason, my blog appeared this time around...yayay. So I'm back!!!

And it couldn't come at a better time, because I need to vent a bit, and what better place than my blog, right?

So Darnell and I got into-yet again-another argument, and I know if I get into the details of said argument its going to sound...er...read....dumb. But it's not the first argument we've had of that kind, and it's the principal of the thing. I will not tone myself down just because there's people in the room. If I want to kiss you or hug you, I'm going to do it regardless. It's not like I was trying to have sex, or do anything sexual. I missed him, I wanted to hug him and kiss him, and he doesn't seem to have a problem w/ that when we're by ourselves, or certain of HIS friends. But he seems to have a problem w/ it when it's my friends or other random people. It makes me feel like he's ashamed of something, and I don't like that feeling. I am who I am and I refuse to act otherwise. I happen to like a little PDA, and I think I've been more than accomodating. I try not to cling to him too much in public and when I kiss him I don't slip him any tounge because I know he's not that comfortable about PDA, but like I adjusted somewhat, I would hope he would as well. And he only does when Alex or Romeo are around (2 of his friends), but no one else. If he really wants to be my boyfriend he has to compromise, and I don't think my hugging him in front of Jeff is a big deal. So I ask u, what is he ashamed of???