Feeling Myself

When part 3 of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina came out, NYX dropped this AMAZING Sabrina eye shadow palette and sets of lipsticks. I absolutely fell in LOVE with the palette and I needed to have it.

Of course it sold out the same day and I was shit outta luck. But luckily, that was only the online launch. They did a store launch at ULTA the following Sunday, and I took a break in the middle of the day to go get it.

It was sold out. 😧

But then the best bestie anyone could have (MY BFF) drove to the ULTA in York and bought the last one they had. Then drove back down to Lancaster, and dropped it off for me at work.

I cried, I'll admit it. I wanted that palette soooo badly! And since then, I've been doing my makeup for work.

On the one hand, it's a little uncomfortable having people give me compliments and mention my face. I'm not used to the (positive) attention, and I feel more visible. On the other hand, I loooove these colors and I like the way they look on me, and I like the way they make me feel. I am definitely more confident. And also, it kinda serves as armor, and I feel I can be more assertive with people at work - something I've been wanting to do, because I feel like as a supervisor they don't usually take us that seriously. But since I started wearing makeup, I think I'm getting better results from the team I supervise.

I've been having to wake up earlier to get it done, but I have a nice routine going and I definitely feel more adult. LOL. I did say I wanted to be more "grown up" this year since I just turned 34. Hopefully I can keep this up and I don't stop.

Its magic...

Work Work Work Work Work

I'm exhausted ya'll! I've been working a lot. Definitely the opposite of my desired position as Lady of Leisure.

Plus side, this week's check is gonna be nice. I have 23 hours of OT. 👯 I already have most of the paycheck planned, and I should have enough left over to maybe get my hair dyed. Finally getting around to it. I've been saying for over a year that I want my hair rose brown. I can't wait to get it done. I also can't wait to get rid of all these grays. Something I thought I'd never say. #hypocrite

Anyway, because of all the hours I've been working, I haven't had a chance to write. I wanted to try to get some writing in on Sunday morning, but there were technical difficulties with the printer at work and so I couldn't print my WIP out.

I need a break...LOL.

Semi-Productive Weekend

After working 9 days, I got 2 days off and it was wonderful! Though it went way too fast.

I decided a few weeks ago that I wanted to get back to writing, and I really wanted to continue working on one of my YA paranormals from a few years ago. Thing is, I'm super disorganized, and so I had the story I was writing, and character sheets, important plot points, etc. scattered all over from USB drives, to laptop files, to random notebooks. So this weekend I decided to find them all and put them in one spot - so I can then transfer them to my new Dabble account. I'm really looking forward to trying Dabble out. I'm hoping it'll help me get a little bit more organized.

Anywho, I was able to accomplish that small task. Even with Chilling Adventures of Sabrina dropping this weekend. Yay me!

I also did most of my laundry, and started working on my pen pal letters. I have at least 2 that need responding. And I would like to send one to Kandise soon as possible too. I also painted a new pin board, AND binge watched Sabrina. All in all, I think it was a good weekend.

Eternal Work

I was having a lovely month off work (yay for working for a college), but I was dreading coming back. I knew once I got back that the bullshit was gonna ensue. And I was right. Long story short, almost everyone that works front of house is broken - accidents, surgeries, re-injuries, etc. Since we are short staffed to begin with, this really puts us in a tight spot. Which is why I'm on day 8 of work. Thankfully though, I'm getting this Friday and Saturday off.

I wasn't sure if I would have a day off until today.

On the one hand, I'm super tired, and even though I just had a month off, I need another vacation. Haha. I hate working so many days. I'm lazy. My body gets tired. I don't have time or energy to do anything (like writing, which I'm trying to get back to).

On the other hand, the OT will be nice. I still need to pay off my cruise and pay for a passport. I'm going to Zenkaikon in March and would like some money to spend in the Artist Alley (I need piiiiins).

But I'm really glad to be getting those days off. Now lets see what happens next week. How many days will I work? Will I have a day off? Only time will tell!

All In My Head???

So after my last post, I spoke to Darnell on the phone. And to tell you the truth, everything seemed fine. We talked, joked around, and then we hung up. He didn't seem bothered by me not being available all week...so maybe I was just in my head. Maybe I was being codependent (I definitely was) but now that I caught myself, I fixed the problem and everything seems ok.

It's a little hard for me sometimes. I keep expecting things to go back to the way they were, and that scares me. I guess I still don't fully trust that he's not that same person anymore. Hopefully over time, I will learn to 100% let go of the past.