So besides all the crap that's been happening these last couple of days...I have more things going on today to make my head spin. One minute I'm super sad, the next I'm ok, not happy, but laughing and whatnot. Why? Well I wont get into the stuff from these last couple of days, I'll just stick with today.
1. Today is my nephew's first birthday. YAY! He's so cute, I can't believe he's already one. My brother made him a cake, and OMG it was freaking YUMMY.
2. It's Jeff's birthday as well. 22, you go Jeffers. He came over last night and we were watching some anime, and then me, him and Virginia started watching porn. It was fun. I should call him though, since he has no plans...I kinda wanna see more of that anime :P
3. Virginia left this morning (back to New Jersey). *Sighs* I'm not going to see her again for a while. She's moving to Colorado in October and wont be back for 10 months. That hurts my heart, she's my best friend, my sister. What am I going to do without her? This is going to be so hard not having her around.
4. Last, but not least, today is the anniversary of my grandma's death. I can't believe it's been 4 years since Tata died. I remember when I found out: I was away at school, and it was Wednesday night. I was over at Cram & Jam doing a little homework and enjoying the live performance of Eric Himan, when my roomie (Jen) tells me I missed a call from my mom. So I borrow her cell and I call her back. I didn't believe her at first, how could I? This was Tata, I spoke to her a few weeks before and she was fine. I went back inside in a trance, and Eric Himan started to sing The Outskirts of You, and I broke. I broke so hard. I started to cry, and I couldn't stop. This was Tata, my Tata, the person who I loved the most in this world. She was such a huge influence in my life, I'm the person I am today, partly because of her. My love of old t.v. shows, my love for board games, and card games (she taught me to play Uno, Old Maid, Parcheesi), she taught me how to speak english. She was my roomate for a long time growing up. I never saw her being gone, I thought she'd be around for ever. (That sounds dumb, but it's true) It was a hard night for me, but everyone was really nice and supporting. Eric Himan came up to me after his set and asked if I was ok (he saw me crying earlier), he was really nice, he autographed a cd for me. Everytime I hear The Outskirts of You (which is a beautiful song) I think of Tata. At first I couldn't listen to it without crying, buy now I can, it makes me miss her so much, but it also helps me remember all the good memories. Which is why I'm listening to it now
Ok, enough of that, now we all know why I'm on this rollercoaster of emotional baggage.
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